Reconnect!! Reveals -

Thoughts before the memory, God no, slightly fades… 

  • Discussed with  HIM knowing both worlds, light and dark,, having done much of what they do on the dark side. allowed to 'dance in the dark' - intentionally

  • The Click moment - make sure to highlight the setup, reveal of the total picture of the trauma, did not help immediate but part of divine setup, once I dropped the dark, I connected, God Zoom

  • Stimulated universal, Christlike forgiveness, as it was recontezualied 

  • String of events done in love not hate as I always thgouth

  • The impossible was done - I tried to hypothesize a way to never feel the scars He zoomed me out and it blew my mind.  - 

  • Regifted things I thought  lost  forever - love for holidays, family events, 

  • Removed the self pity - 

  • Other divine plans? 

    • Kristen initial connection was via Bible verse. Spiritual Thread throughout 

I think I had another revelation. 

It very much could have been the intent or at least one of… 

I felt the collective message through all my sufferings, panic, psychosis - which was specifically because I was total outlier, part of the 1% touched by fire with a unique and beautiful mind - the end lesson - God picked me because of my black and while sense of looking at the world, the reveal was NOT done in small increments but rather multi decade of no answers only to have ALL answered in a single moment. 

I told my wife that it was a click, a single snap and I went from living in the dark world and flipped to the light - I think  of a camera negative vs final - totally inverted - 

So, what if the same inverted approach - the total realization that down is up, evil is good, good is evil - starting with the evil tingle during Charlie memorial.  Or when j6 happened, or 911… felt in my core something was not right. 

Yesterday, I naturally gravitated to my Bible like I had never in my life. No interest in non Christian music, movies, TV - just a draw and Thirst for me and to learn more and write my experience. 

This led me to investigate the omitted 7 books of the Bible - we have been taught so much of the same.  What if parts of the Holy Book was intentionally excluded as to not shine a light on certain things.. 

- what if… our world truly is not what we thought it was,  what if the dark forces stole the label of chosen ones,  prompting blank loyalty and trust due to something Biblically based, but what if that was corrupted and weaponized? What if a multi century plan to suppress vital information from the Christian church? 

So - maybe this is one of the places this journey ends up? 

Maybe this is why the suffering, agony, feeling of abandonment turned to feeling  on FIRE. 

I can't keep the Bible down, I want to write and output like never before. 

So, is that why the dark so desperate to interrupt? Distract? 

Is this the divine intent, I am no longer allowing to be disrupted by darkness.? 

The fact that I can barely read these words as I type them,? SO much more intention in their disruption than I knew.