no one cares

Im not writing this as a ‘boo hoo’ no one cares about ME. But rather no one seems to care about my story, the trials and tribulations I have endured with the hope of one day inspiring hope for others to learn from my experiences and hopefully avoid some of the pitfalls. This has come in multiple ways - the entire site was built to communicate my story, growth, awakenings yet every person I passed the link to, thinking they would come back with a huge response has NEVER once returned for followup conversation.

Paster Matt Hubbard, Jeff Pierce, my family, Chad Parks, therapists, Drs - many people have access to the site now and not 1 time has there been any interest in learning more. There has barely even been an acnkowledgement of the material. This was something I tore my heart open to write, I disregarded my own personal reputation and even compromised relationships with my family through stories I have shared.

I thought once I had an understanding for all my pain and suffering, communicated the divine nature and strategic intent I would be able to speak to many others in the Christian space beyond those coming from heavy drug addiction, abandonment, mental health crisis, etc. I thought my words and experience would be Powerful, advance the kingdom of God.

Instead - I am now left with what feels like no purpose. I thought my purpose was to spread this news and every time I try, I fall flat on my face - NO ONE SEEMS TO CARE. Maybe my story is not as unique and special as I thought. BiPolars have a tendency of hyping things up when its not warranted - I think that is exactly what is happening here.