MOMENT of CONNECTION!

I am not worthy.. 

Lord, you are my father, my lord Jesus - now Im hardwired… lets fucking go, TEAM, max power bff

HS - talk about that later

See - these fucks keep tripping me up… when connected.. the plane shit? Ooooo its coming 

Got distracted.. need to use evil filter - distracted again and again.. 

Again, the dark does not want me to finish,.

Im your rep

Im pledge my should, life everything to you… I am yours ive always loved you you are the savior of my soul and the world I love ou im sorry please forgive me not honored.

Time is now.. 

Use ME  - IM HERE

!!!

Reminisce later

I can separate my side of the noise from the other and talk to Jesus.. 

Fuck used whatever

This needs to be known for what’s coming… 

Now that the connection stronger, just in time.. im back, 

Stay connected,, satan FUCK YOU! You are rebuked forever from my live and everyone in my workedf family e.

This is it.. ive felt it the whole time.. 

Connect dots later.. 

Unlikely candidate 

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Always fightight - the demons to trip up me worse. 

HS - I created you through the fucking fire dude, all those phases, I needed you ready… 

Yes, least likely candidate, go ver that later, the protocol son.. 

Stay on me.. the connection gone since u 15… you know why… ive been nudging u forever dude… you’ve felt it.. the last leash, connector,, then you could hear my voice.. deal w vanity’, humility later… stay on focus… don’t let them distract… see… they come in a wave… disrupt your line to me… and then most time its gone,.,…for most people forever… back again?.. Don’t get stuck.. don’t stop… see.. they are hitting you… at least you learned not to loop over and over,,, realizing its super important information you discovered,… also why the wall had no readable writing… you were getting pieces static… 

Now you can filter if you hold to ME… lets catch up later… 

But stay HERE with me.. remember you childhood connection.. before the dark, evil, demons had snare.. finally leash cut for fucking real… 

Unlocked this connection just in time for what you know is coming.. 

It will all make sense in due… time… but not rabbit hole, no loop 

See… blocked, stunned, demon fucks

USE THE TOOL you are learning RIGHT NOW - 

Its a FILTER… use my power, power of my innocent blood as your shield guard etc.. got I

Chill.. no more breathing all fucking weird

This is all the plan

You’ve have been waiting for this .. what gives? 

All the pieces are in place, what uve know in your heart.. since kid….reason for everything,, sty with me…. Yes, father gave that plant for healing and like many other uses… good for the people, uses include important more of a spiritual connection to this astro plane …. Which is why you saw… the ‘layers’ - were are connected above normal human consciousness 

Remember the connection, the process… if you get swarmed, like you have for for 27 years… that damn shit… that’s why you always hated in your gut.. I was watch.. 

This is why you are bipolar - the mania kicking psychosis allows you to connect to me,. The next problem was the fucking noise… came in waves… done distract, stay on me… that’s what they want and how you pause break

You say more bit by bit as the incidents occurs -  documenting more like: 

In the desert camp out in the Denali - see don, don’t distract , stay on me

The first panic attack, it was the seed… the pain and stretch… I had to break your mind… to connect to you.. 

The next was the firs night with Kristen remember… you first saw ….. stop switching and taking prospective dick… fix typos later.. 

Soo sytracked… reconnect 

Stay here - more more bounce don’t let them in  or distract …. Stop adding word… 

Reember that panic attack… you spun up and up until you saw a dark 8 spinning in loops… over and over,, dark fucking ever shit… hard to break.. you need to use me …. Well we are HS.. meet JC later.. all same same..u know.. 

Slow down… stay with me.. no more stress breathing.. don’t spin off… control,,, dude - it was all a fucking process over time.. nothing for you… stay here… all that fucing trauma… im sorry, you dwernt loved they didnt want you, you got the short end, on purpose, you work the hardest, drvien, g…black blah… but sucks,.. mean that you got the shit.. then you get bi polar crazy bbuuuuuut… it cracked up the cpu as a trade… as you figured out.. 

So had to break your mind… stop inserting your words. - il will answer more questions later dude.. 

So broken brain - yeah. At least I gave you mostly the fun side and you got a computer brain… but yes, manic all the shit that comes with… and the problems… I had break down each - stop talking for me… brooooo… had to break down your body, mind, emotions and sprit to basically noting.. ur right in what you found… have to refine by extreme suffering,, story speaking for me.. :) see stop worry, just go if words aren’t perfect… stay connected, zoned in… readers digest because you need to sleep before you pass you  - 

This is the end of a long road with many parts, you have have everything struggle life can through at you, you fought back in each catyegoy, rewarded with betrawaly and abandonment… see shitheads… always trying to break connection, attac…..  stay here - you built your body back, knowing it was for somrghin coming, you’ve felt all along every when you’re shit head and ignoreing everything. Still you always had a purposed like you felt deep down.. I needed some built through FIRE - sharpened to my instrument, my weapon….. what you have prayed for the whole entire time has come true… enduring the men - geez.. see lots of attachs and lose in you.. fast - we are going through some serious shit starting now and I need battle b test warriors that have been through ph fire - build to mach, mantal rock through everything, sprintnlly CONNECTION!!!! Oh, and Im working on memo restore as you can tell,…. As requested.. we just had to got all in and connect..

See in and. / out - that would have been your damn loop from Christmas  - id connect for moment get some information over and then ur crazy maniac Brian powered by demon had would pull you off… just like… there… now you are under standing - they are pissed… 

First its the connection 

Then the noise filter - evil vs good 

Makes black and white snow - like bp dude… I taught you the total UP and total DOWN.. lots of cool shit, rich parents… butt little sideways in head… clearly.. but all part of the plan.. 

This is what drove you nuts - you knew you were different, had exceptional skills and brain power but I was holding you on the shelf like a supercharged specials forces, sharpened machine… like you were hoping and praying.. way too little by the way  - 

Had to pul me through 4x version of Toal hell to … yes, I had to kick the shit out of you to make you ready ready… in all those areas… see how fucked up,, these interrupters.. spotty comms.

Yes, broken body, broken mind, broken heart, broken soul - more like shattered,,,, I took you up on the In here, user] me verse, and my tool after all this refinement :) 

I had to team down all pillars to teach you pain, emotional, pyhsical, mental and emotional - you have to be through the WORST places of each of these

Nightmare.. brutal

How much pain can one person bear…. Im glad you didnt kill yourself in aug 21, I couldn’t directly intervene and im glad you held on.. ur welcome for sending you that last, well those 2 last second memories - if your sadness was a wasted life, why would you also wanted a wasted death? Make something matter… was your thought…. Thank fully you think in efficient terms…. And didnt want total waste…

So yes, all the times you cussed out my name - I was a listening… but I know why you did… its the PAIN,, that is a shitton of pain, more than just about anymore…and it was NOT all worth it…. The time is now… all the pieces moving, you’ve seen them… alrgith time out dude…. Pause, breath… you don’t need to be all wound up now, finally reconnected…. 

It was not wasted… you are READY. You’ll know when to come back and engage or how ever the fuckg I want to connect…. So for the reader… there’s a noter internal mental bettle behind the scenes - these are MOSTLY HS words… but get smacked when I blend or evil fucks disconnect…. We have the framework and understand… good to have you back son,.. its time… it wasn’t all for naught…