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Once I had that spiritual connection - that incredible moment, I became very attune to God’s influence, presence and design. This was a result of the ‘God Zoom’ mentioned. However, in the same sprit of the message received, there is darkness EVERYWHERE constantly trying to disrupt, agitate, confuse - delay a message out. I discuss it at length in the spiritual moment.

After that moment, talking to Him like a dude and charging forward writing and publishing this experience. But life distractions and attempt to be a perfectionist kept stalling.

Im not saying ANY of this to absolve ANY responsiblity I own - but it is interesting timing.

I no longer was / am upset with Kristen OR my family and considered this possibility. Fully broken down, I still have my Bible and the placeholder fell out - randomly opened to Romans 1:20 - “ Romans 1:20 (NIV): For since the creation of the world God’s invisible qualities—his eternal power and divine nature—have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that people are without excuse.”

Felt like such a deliberate nudge.

So - my story continues, I was pushed to the absolute limit and held on. I learned tools and stregthened my faith to where I would NEVER self commit but I was in SO MUCH PAIN, I spent the whole night begging God to stop my heart. That bad.

Still - His grace and these tools, barely made it -

Maybe His big nudge to get moving and reconfirm.. IDK - but Im a different person…

So, I am going to document each day at the Mental Health treatement center for myself and anyone that wants to follow along.

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